KINGDOM OF GOD

Try as I might to settle myself down,
My soul is pricked with nettles.
My fickle ears desire to hear the void,
But are annoyed with the hum
of my own mind.
The thump of my pulse, the sigh of the wind,
The snap of a twig, the rustle of leaves
Like thriving bees in a busy hive,
Sounds disrupt until my mind erupts
Into a flurry of distractions and anxieties.
As busyness thrashes about in my head
Unseen shadows call forth questions...
I wonder who am I?
What shall I do; am I so odd?
Am I doing anything that matters?
Yet, I am very sure
I have a destiny from God.
This decreasing and diminishing of self
My mind ponders what it requires.
Must I kill ‘self’ to still myself?
To try to know my God? To know His will?
To enter His Kingdom? Calm on the pond,
Smiles of a child, paths of peace.
As I think on things that are good,
Can rest restore, as my soul explores
Deep vaults of comprehension and perception?
I strain to hear the country’s calm,
the quiet night
And long to be placid, tranquil, serene.
Yearning to fling the worried world far from me,
Aching to tune my being to Divine,
For I know the will of God is life’s necessity.
I hunt for wisdom and understanding.
To search beyond the average, the mundane.
I dare to seek for what’s unique in
Untapped vaults of information, observation.
I was taught to seek God and His righteousness,
Intended to find this time in all of history,
This place, this space in all eternity
That I was meant to be!
To this age I am born,
To this commission, to intercession
There is this time...this hour,
And I am part of it. Still, I shall seek!
I shall seek first the Kingdom of God.
For I was born to know this King first-hand,
Designed just like my Lord, royal and divine,
Destined to reign and serve His unseen land.